And suddenly…. WHAM. My whole aura changed completely. I was upside down. I really couldn’t believe it. It seemed like a bad joke or I just understood something wrong. It was 8:30pm and I was in the middle of the train. And my first thought was my cat dying last week that has upset me so much was nothing compared to this, not even a bad joke, and not at all a preparation for THIS! My breath grew heavy. I slowly, slowly put down the phone. Staring somewhere out the window my sight went unclear. Tears rolled down my beautiful face that my father had given me and I started sobbing so heavily. No. No. No. It was all so unreal. So damn unreal!